Goodbye

Goodbye to my home.
Goodbye to feeling secure.
Goodbye to the iris bed I dug with my own hands.
Goodbye to the satisfaction of drinking a beer in my backyard.

Goodbye to my cats, who taught me that they aren't all evil.
Goodbye to bedmates, both feline and human.
While we're at it, goodbye to my bed.

Goodbye to having someone waiting for me.
Goodbye to someone who cared.
Goodbye to solving mysteries together.
Goodbye to having someone to share my day with, even if she didn't really care.

Goodbye to all my plans for us.
Goodbye to all my dreams.
Goodbye to the future we had together.
And most of all, goodbye to the little child I was going to read stories too, and do voices for all the characters.

I'm sorry I never got to meet you.

Goodbye to feeling small.
Goodbye to being a burden. Goodbye to never feeling good enough.
Goodbye to "when are you getting a real job?"

Goodbye to the girl that no one, not even she, liked.
Goodbye to fights in public.
Goodbye to making my friends feel awkward.
Goodbye to having to chose between one or the other.

Goodbye to screaming when you clothes don't fit.
Goodbye to waiting until the last minute.
Goodbye to four bank accounts.
Goodbye to living on an allowance.
Goodbye to my spending money to eat while you bought jewelry.

Goodbye to the nose in the air at the wedding reception.
Goodbye to not dancing with me.
And goodbye to "should I go out and try to catch the bouquet."

Goodbye to not understanding.
Goodbye to feeling alone.
Goodbye to a future of depression.
Goodbye to being held back.

Goodbye to my wife, my soulmate
and a nightmare that ruined my life.
Goodbye to a lot of things, some good, some bad.

Hello to what awaits me ahead.